Friday, September 25, 2009

Vitamin D

Dr. Law sent me the results of my latest vitamin D level today and I am in the normal range (42.4)! He wants me to continue my calcium and vitamin D daily, and have a recheck in 6 months to make sure I stay in range. The chemo was rough on my bones, so it's important they keep and eye on these levels.

Thank you God for good results!

Erma Bombeck

My mom loved Erma Bombeck. I remember us sitting around the table and mom reading Erma's column to us. Erma helped women learn to laugh at themselves and at all those crazy moments life has to offer. She reminded us not to take ourselves too seriously and to stop and smell the roses. One of my favorite books she wrote is "Motherhood: the second oldest profession".

Here is a poem she wrote when she was battling kidney cancer. You may have seen it a thousand times, but it is a great reminder. One of my girlfriends from high school emailed it to me today. Thanks Sherry!


I would have gone to bed when I was sick instead of pretending the earth would go into a holding pattern if I weren't there for the day.

I would have burned the pink candle sculpted like a rose before it melted in storage.

I would have talked less and listened more.

I would have invited friends over to dinner even if the carpet was stained, or the sofa faded.

I would have eaten the popcorn in the 'good' living room and worried much less about the dirt when someone wanted to light a fire in the fireplace.

I would have taken the time to listen to my grandfather ramble about his youth.

I would have shared more of the responsibility carried by my husband.

I would never have insisted the car windows be rolled up on a summer day because my hair had just been teased and sprayed.

I would have sat on the lawn with my grass stains.

I would have cried and laughed less while watching television and more while watching life.

I would never have bought anything just because it was practical, wouldn't show soil, or was guaranteed to last a lifetime.

Instead of wishing away nine months of pregnancy, I'd have cherished every moment and realized that the wonderment growing inside me was the only chance in life to assist God in a miracle.

When my kids kissed me impetuously, I would never have said, 'Later. Now go get washed up for dinner.'

There would have been more 'I love you's' More 'I'm sorry's.'

But mostly, given another shot at life, I would seize every minute, look at it and really see it, live it and never give it back.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Work-Life Balance

Lately I have been letting the stress at work really get to me and I know this isn't healthy. I have to remind myself I can only do so much and I have to set limits. This will be much easier said than done. There are so many people I work with that seem to have no work-life balance. They rush to work, rush home to take their kids to ball games, rush through homework, put them to bed and then hop on their laptops and work until after midnight. I am not sure they even realize how much they are missing. If this is what it takes to be successful in the corporate world then I am not sure I want to sign up. I am a hard worker during work hours, but I think you have to draw the line somewhere and have a personal life. I have never heard of anyone on their deathbed that said "I wish I had spent more time at the office".

Every morning I remind myself to Let go and let God show me where I need to go and what I need to do to keep my life balanced.

One year ago...

One year ago this week I got my 12th (and last) chemo treatment. In some ways it does not seem like a whole year has gone by. Then I stop and think about it, and realize a lot has happened since that time. I went back to work full time, had my reconstructive surgery and my hair grew back. There are still have a few lingering side effects I'm dealing with, but they are not anything to complain about. I remind myself every day to be thankful and not take life for granted.

I appreciate your continued prayers and support.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Friends, Modesty and Life

I have two friends that will be having biopsies in the next few days. I am hoping and praying that their results come back negative. I do not want anyone else to have to experience what I did last year. I was having lunch with one of them and she was talking about her first experience with wearing the paper shirt for the exam. My friend is pretty modest and was talking about how uncomfortable that was for her. I guess I had chosen to forget all about those early days when you are exposed over and over again for tests, biopsies, etc... I grew up with two sisters, so I never was overly modest to begin with. After a year of showing my chest to multiple doctors, nurses and radiology personnel, it doesn't even phase me anymore to take off my shirt or discuss my man-made chest with others. At my appointment last week I even discussed my nipples with the receptionist-- I guess most people would say my modesty is officially gone after that. : )

Monday, September 21, 2009

Week 6 of Wellness Pilot

Today began week 6 of the wellness pilot. I have to admit, with all the stress last week I did not exactly stay on track with my eating. I did however get in my cardio and weights. I overindulged myself with comfort food and I could really tell when I went to my workout session this afternoon. Mitch introduced us to 4 new exercises (with weights) and even though my chest area is still pretty numb, I could tell I was giving my upper body a good workout. My plan is to resume food journaling tomorrow and get back on track with my food intake. It's so easy to say "hey I'm stressed, I DESERVE a snickers".

Peaceful weekend

It was a peaceful rainy weekend. Our yard is full of green, happy, and tall grass. My neglected outdoor plants are also loving all this rain. I slept in on Saturday and then worked on a few projects that are due by the end of the month. Sunday brought an inspiring message at church and lunch with great friends. Good weekend overall.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Quote of the day

"Love ever, Hurt never"
~House of Blues

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Long stressful week

This has been a very long and stressful week. Monday I was off site at a training and I began to receive text messages from people at the office. Every time we had a break I checked my messages. The decision had been made to reduce our workforce by 26% - by the end of the day 74 people had been laid off. The rest of the week has been about reorganizing those of us who are left. I lost my supervisor and some of my best friends to the layoffs. This economy scares me, there are way too many people out of work. I am hoping and praying all of those affected find a job they love very quickly.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Henderson weekend

Sherry did a great job of getting us all to Henderson this weekend to celebrate Dad's 74th birthday. We are all going in ten different directions so this was a big feat to get us all there at one time.
Saturday we enjoyed lunch at Bells Drive In. Bells is our local diner that has won best burger in America more than once. It's not the healthiest place to eat, but it is delicious!

Saturday evening we had a birthday dinner of Jack's BBQ with all the fixins'. Sherry made a delicious spice cake with caramel icing and Dad had birthday cupcakes for the little ones.
Today there was a potluck lunch at church, so we stayed for that as well. The ladies of the Henderson church have always thrown a great potluck. The food was fabulous, and the dessert table overflowing.

I had hoped to go visit with some friends while I was home, but I will just have to make another trip. I ran out of time.

Happy Birthday Dad!

There's something to be said for the Small Town...

Well I was born in a small town
And I live in a small town
Probably die in a small town
Oh, those small communities

All my friends are so small town
My parents live in the same small town
My job is so small town
Provides little opportunity

Educated in a small town
Taught the fear of Jesus in a small town
Used to daydream in that small town
Another boring romantic thats me

But Ive seen it all in a small town
Had myself a ball in a small town
Married an l.a. doll and brought her to this small town
Now shes small town just like me

No I cannot forget where it is that I come from
I cannot forget the people who love me
Yeah, I can be myself here in this small town
And people let me be just what I want to be

Got nothing against a big town
Still hayseed enough to say - Look whos in the big town
But my bed is in a small town
Oh, and thats good enough for me

Well I was born in a small town
And I can breathe in a small town
Gonna die in this small town
And thats probably where theyll bury me


Lisa, Chadd, Chassi and I went to see Wicked the musical on Friday night at TPAC. It was a fabulous story about what happened in Oz, before Dorothy showed up on the scene. The show was awesome and we had a wonderful time.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Dr. Wagstrom follow up

I saw Dr. Wagstrom (plastic surgeon) today. She is very pleased with my progress and how my surgery has turned out. I have healed very well and my scars are fading more each month. I was to have my tattoos touched up today, but the nurse that does that was overbooked, so I will have to go back another day to get that done. 

Dr. Wagstrom and her staff were featured in the summer issue of Nashville's best for Health and Wellness. I knew I had fabulous people taking care of me, and this article and recognition just confirms it even more. 

Lisa and Jenni went with me to the appointment, and then we had a nice lunch at Which Wich and then shopped at Trader Joes. It makes me thankful not only for my family, and my health, but for our freedom - especially on this day September 11th. It is so easy to take things for granted, living here in America. I think I need to stop and write out my grateful list today and say an extra prayer for all those who serve our communities and our country. 

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Short work week

This week I only worked Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, and that was plenty. They were all meeting filled days with lots to do.

Tomorrow morning I have a follow up with my plastic surgeon, Dr. Wagstrom at Centennial. It's time for my 6 month check up, and also for a bit of touch ups on my medical tattoos. Then tomorrow night it's on to see Wicked at TPAC with Lisa, Chadd and Chassi. Instead of going to work, rushing to my appointment over lunch, then back to work and quickly home to change - I decided to take the whole day off!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Labor Day weekend

It was a nice peaceful labor day weekend. Most of the 3 day weekend I took it easy and got in some much needed rest. Busy work weeks and stress still can completely exhaust me. Sunday night we had a couple of work friends over to grill out and relax.

Monday night Josh and his crew came over for dinner and an outdoor movie. I had gotten a movie projector for my birthday, and we had not had the chance to try it out. We hooked the projector to our portable DVD player and hung a white shower curtain on the pergola to make a screen. We watched The Little Mermaid and had popcorn. Anna Belle and Morgan loved it! The photos came out a bit blurry, but you can see the make-shift screen.
Jenni will be coming home this weekend and I can't wait to see her. We talk on the phone every day or so, but it is not the same as seeing her face. I think watching the Little Mermaid made me miss her even more. She used to watch that movie daily when she was little.
Thank you to my friend Amy for the idea and inspiration!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Movie quotes of the day

"There's no reason to become alarmed, and we hope you'll enjoy the rest of your flight. By the way, is there anyone on board who knows how to fly a plane?" - Airplane

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."
- Ferris Bueller

I think I need to pull one of these movies out - I could use some fun lightweight entertainment.

Long stressful week at work

I try my hardest to leave work stuff at work and not let stress get to me. I know it is not good for me physically to be stressed, but it is quite a challenge right now to remain unaffected. I truly believe in the company I work for and the mission that we have. However the economy is bad and I realize that when businesses have to start cutting benefits, wellness programs are some of the first to go.
So...the rumors of layoffs have begun and the stress level rises each day. Lately the bathrooms seem to be a hot-bed of nausea and crying jags. I hope upper management realizes how hard it is to focus when everyone is fearing for their jobs on a daily basis. I hope they make their decisions wisely and quickly so we can all just move on with our jobs, or find something new.
My goal is to turn it all over to God and just know that whatever happens-- it will be for the best and I will be just fine.

Week 4 of wellness pilot

I just completed week 4 of the wellness pilot and I've lost 3 lbs and definitely gained some strength. The body comp analysis did show an increase in lean muscle mass also. I am up to using 10 lb weights for my rows, squats and on the bench. All this strength training is continuing to wake up those nerve endings in my chest area that have been numb for over a year now. That is not very comfortable, but in the long run I'm sure I will be glad. The weather has been so great lately I have had a nice time doing my cardio in the park. I am also getting used to planning out my meals and staying within my calorie range.